Wednesday, September 26, 2012

September 3, 2012.
The Mask -
Sometimes when I stand at the bathroom mirror, applying my makeup, I am aware that I am really just applying a mask.  On days that I feel unsure of myself, I know that I hide behind the  foundation, rouge and gloss, and I hope that after I apply the mask, I will become the girl who looks back at me in the mirror.  

September 4, 2012.
Walking Into Grade Two -
He's excited and ready for all of the possibilities.

September 5, 2012.
Time -
The kitchen doorway is covered in years of grime.  It can not be washed properly - it is here where I track the passage of time.  These marks represent my children's milestones, growth spurts, and also serve as a reminder to me to cherish the fleeting moments of their childhood.

September 6, 2012.
Chompers -
I worked late again and felt bad that I missed dinner with my family.  When I got home, Charlie was already in bed, but not yet asleep.  He was waiting to show me his new smile.  I was glad he stayed awake.

September 6, 2012.
I sat in the tub until the water turned cool, because I needed the time alone.

September 8, 2012.
Windy and Rainy -
The wind and rain made going to work on a Saturday easier.  A little anyways.  

September 9, 2012.
One week into the school year and everyone in the house has come down with a nasty cold.

September 10, 2012.
Left Behind -
On Friday night, there was a huge party in the field behind my house.  Really?  I thought to myself.  Back when I was in high school, a bush party required a bush not a field.  One of the party goers left their bong behind.  I'm thinking of bringing it in the house and putting dried flowers in it.

September 11, 2012.
Running -
For me it's impossible to learn without making mistakes.  I learned a lot today, but my mistakes left me feeling angry and discouraged.  So I went for a run.  I burned off my anger and found peace acceptance and forgiveness.  I will mess things up, I will make mistakes and that is part of my journey.

September 12, 2012.
Lost -
This picture was a complete accident, and the only picture I took on September twelfth.  Somewhere in between trying to master the new job, maintain my home and support my husband and family, the passion it takes to complete a 365 that I'm proud of is missing. I can't find the time energy for the pictures and words that I once used to define and clarify my values, and that makes me feel anxious and lost.

September 13, 2012.
Girl Talk -
When I was pregnant with my daughter, people would ask me if I was hoping for a boy or a girl.  My answer was always the same -girl.  My answer usually made people gasp a little, "You should just hope for a healthy baby" they would say.  Of course I wanted a healthy baby, a healthy girl baby - and if they didn't want an answer they shouldn't have asked the question.  The point is, even before she entered my life, I couldn't picture it without her.  Each and every day I am thankful for her.

September 14, 2012.
Five Minutes -
A five minute break was all I got today. I sat in the cool breeze and basked in the warm sun, and enjoyed every second of it.

September 15, 2012.
Best Brothers Ever -
basement edition.

September 16, 2012.
Cookies and Milk -
I heard him pull a chair up to the cupboard and get out an afternoon snack for himself.  Then he quietly sat down at the table where I was cutting fabric.  Sitting there he looked grown up and small all at the same time.

September 17, 2012.
Old Story -
The pages of the book were scattered on the dew moistened ground.  For some reason I was attracted to the pages and took a quick snapshot of one of the pages.  After, when I went to edit the picture on Instagram, I read the page.  The words and message reflected how I felt about the past few weeks of my own life.  The old story was my old story and it needed to be thrown away.  It was a gentle reminder that the universe knows.

September 18, 2012.
On the Line -
At some point you have to decide.  What is the most important thing on the line?  Your home?  Your job? Your family? Yourself?  What if balance is impossible and you have to choose - What is most important to you right now?

September 19, 2012.
Finding Time In Shorter Days -

" Change is a measure of time, and in autumn, time seems speeded up. 
What was is not, and never again will be; what it is is change."
~ Edward Teale. 

September 20, 2012.
Eye Opener -
A trip to the Love Shop left me feeling more virginal than I had in years.

September 21, 2012.
Final Trip -
We went to Valens Conservation Area for our final camping trip of the season.  Valens is our go to place to camp, and each time we drive into the campground, I feel like I am coming home.


  1. Trish your entry on finding balance really spoke to me ... I too have gone back to work! xo cheryl

  2. Your photo and comment about your daughter made me teary because I can relate. All I wanted and knew I was having was a "girl baby" and when I met A in person, it was always her.... Beautiful photos as usual. :) Larissa